pumpkin therapy for betrayal...

found this blue pumpkin at the pumpkin patch...

and had a wonderful talk with Judy, who I miss so much...

it looks good on my deck...

and a gourd and another blue pumpkin...

got 3 small ones, too...

2 white, one striped...

for inside...

got these shots this morning...

after a long day yesterday and an unrestful night...

I came to a decision...

the new meds came with instructions to tell my doctor about certain things before I started taking them...

and so a simple phone call to him turned into several...

and his nurses were upset with him also...

I only had one question...

here's my concern and can I take them?

yes or no?

simple, really, or so I thought...

since I have insurance, he wouldn't give me the answer...

I was to make another appointment...

knowing we are in harvest...

knowing how hard it is for me to get there...

knowing it would be next Monday before Craig could get me there...

knowing my blood sugar is spiking into the 200s when I eat...

3 times I bed the nurse to tell me yes or no...

3 times, they said he will not answer that question without coming in to see him...

( I was just there last Thursday and he called the meds in)

so, I called the lady that you have to talk to to change your primary care physician...

she wanted to know what happened and I told her...

she asked if I would tell someone else...

to report this...

I said ok...

so she transferred me to another lady...

who was quite upset...

seems my question was not unreasonable and that he should of answered me without another trip...

soooooo, we talked about the other physicians...

they have 2 new ones just starting out there...

and the advisory nurse helped me pick one out and I was going to change after my next appointment with said doctor was over...

so after a day full of ups and downs...

Craig and I headed 8 miles south and grabbed some pumpkins and hit the deli for our lunch meat for the week...

this is Sarah...

and this is why the towels aren't folded yet...

she is over 4 months old now...

closer to 5...

she is so small...

and my constant companion...

this morning, the new doctor's nurse called me...

saying he would take me as a new patient...

(the advisory nurse went down yesterday afternoon and talked to her personally about what was going on...)

(DH had called me late yesterday telling me that he had Thursday off for his day off in 14 and he could take me if I could get an appointment made for that day...

instead of waiting for Monday...)

are you keeping up?

sorry its messed up...

anyway...

so after this morning's phone call...

I start thinking...

I would really love one more time with this doctor to tell him off...

but that would defeat everything, really...

that during harvest, I need to make my visits count...

and getting to someone who will take care of me and get my blood sugar down is the most important thing right now...

not ranting on this guy...

so, I talked to Craig...

and I called the advisory nurse and talked to her...

and...

long story short...

I am seeing the new guy on Thursday...

old guy is out of there...

I really thought that this guy cared about me...

ME...

but I found out yesterday all he cares about is my insurance...

bottom line...

its the money...

and I felt betrayed...

I thought I was more than a number...

that he saw me as a person...

I still love the clinic, hospital and all the other staff there...

they do care and they take really good care of us...

well, the sun just dipped below the horizon here...

another day marked off...

DH didn't get home until after 9 last night...

but I was flaring and already in bed...

I got up to spend about 45 minutes with him before he headed for bed...

he was so tired...

and he has to spend his only day off in 14 taking me to Paris again...

its totally not fair...

I will take him out for lunch...

;0)

whoppers all the way around...

have a good night...

autumn on the prairie...

we have only been down in the 40s, so the fall  color is slow coming this year...

but there is a start of it now...

we have had some very perfect days...

lows in the 40s and it has been warming up into the 60s-70s...

and most of the time, the sun is out...

DH is working the whole weekend...

but my son is home today and tomorrow...

he took me for a ride this morning before the Bears' game...

waiting for it to get over with so we can make a quick store run here in town...

we have had a super dry fall...

so things are not flowing and turning the prettiest frankenstein green...

most of the leaves are just curling up and turning brown...

won't be the prettiest of falls...

some of the farmers are down with harvest and turning ground now...

that big white thing is a ground pile...

when the elevator gets full, they dump it there and will haul it out later...

this is the first one here in town...

(there will be 2)

where DH works, they have started on the 2nd one already...

they only dump corn in them...

good weekend for chili...

and heading to grab some hamburger...

so we can have something else to eat as this runs out...

Happy Thanksgiving to all my Canadian friends!

I hope you have a wonderful holiday with friends and family...

turkey and all the good stuff...

I would love to have Thanksgiving this time of the year...

that would give us so much more time to get ready for the Christmas season...

;0)

or the first week of November...

then we could just roll from Halloween right into pie eating time...

and the weather would be nicer for gatherings...

and putting Christmas lights up outside...

just a thought...

you know when they picked a date...

there weren't outside lights and plastic snowmen yet...

I think we should write congress about this...

;0)

all those in favor...

leave a comment...

;0)

happy weekend...

it took me awhile this morning to figure out it was the weekend...

feels like Friday to me...

that's what harvest does to you...

(not blaming old age today)

no smirking!

;0)

the train is non stop here...

got to get the grain shipped out of town...

we were out for a walk so went down and watched it go by...

Craig is in the shower getting ready to head to work...

I have been up since 4am...

so I am getting a nap in today...

;0)

I have got my work almost done...

the last load of clothes is about to come out of the dryer...

once they're hung up and folded, I'm snoozin'...

that will be my 3rd load today...

that's enough...

got 2 pots of chili made...

my wimpy one...

and the guys' spicier one...

dishes are almost done and the kitchen doesn't look like a bomb went off anymore...

;0)

hope y'all are having a good weekend...

nothing too hard going on...

find a pumpkin patch and drink some cider...

;0)

got to get moving and get my grocery list made for Craiger...

BEFORE he leaves...

;0)

see ya tomorrow!

yesterday's finds...

well, it was a long day...

6 hours to see the doctor and try to get the meds from the pharmacy...

found this mask...

Dollar General...

$1

and it dressed up the light on the kitchen table...

found this mercury pumpkin there, too...

$10

and it lights up...

and a pirate make over happened here this morning...

before...

(bald)

and after...

pirate wig...

(because we only need one bald guy around here)

$4

(they were $18 at Walmart)

shhhhh, you didn't hear that from me...

first, the doctor...

I am off of the Metformin officially now...

onto Geneva...

if I ever get it...

its on the third pharmacy now...

Walmart where Craig works...

he is bringing it home tonight...

he also put me on a very low dosage blood pressure pill to protect my kidneys...

did two vials of blood and had to pee in a cup...

(I had just peed!)

so, we walked around and walked around...

and finally...

I got that taken care of...

then off to DG so the pharmacy there would have enough time to fill my new script...

its around $116 for the Geneva...

sooooooo...

we get there and check on it...

45 minutes, they hadn't checked their voice mail...

soooooooo....

we walk around and walk around...

well, I sat while Craig pushed...

and we looked at stupid stuff when we ran out of good stuff to look at...

and so it went...

until...

time was up...

only to be told that they just got it and it would be another 20 minutes...

I said, "No, it won't"...

here's what you need to do...

"call it down to the other Walmart, son works there...

I am diabetic and I have to eat...

and cannot wait around all afternnoon for my meds"...

Craig is bringing it home tonight...

I really hate these new pharmacys....

not like the old time mom and pop ones that took care of you...

these people here move slower than the smell of snail...

it was 6:00 before we walked through the door and had planned on being home 3:30 or so...

it wasn't a bad day...

just not how it was planned...

a bunch of hurry up and wait everywhere we went...

I am not going to start the Geneva until Sunday morning...

Craig is off Sunday and Monday, so it I have a reaction to it or it knocks the bottom out of my blood sugar, I won't be here alone...

that gives me 2 days to figure it out...

and the blood pressure med...

2.5 mg is all and shouldn't do anything to that...

but it will protect my kidneys from damage...

and that is a good thing...

;0)

so, had a crazy, goofy day...

and Craig was funny...

and we found some cool stuff...

;0)

DH is working all weekend this time...

will get a day off later next week...

we are about half way through harvest...

we can do this...

;0)

its trying to look like fall...

most of the leaves here are still green and still on the trees...

we haven't had a frost yet...

or even a good scare of one...

we took the long way to the grocery store this morning...

and there were some characters hanging around town...

look at all that color!

this guy is hanging out on the street the school is on...

can you imagine being little and walking by him?

bwahahahaha!

all that fall color was in the top of this tree...

not very much of it at all...

but it looks good in the sunlight to me...

and the Saturday night bath has come early this week...

;0)

the rate things are going, we will be raking leaves on Thanksgiving...

I am going to take a minute and clarify a few things...

from some questions in the comments...

harvest for us is a bit batty...

DH, who worked in a factory for over 27 years, was let go when they failed to make a profit anymore here in the US...

most of our factories that were here either moved to Mexico or over seas...

we have a bunch of empty buildings, though...

that forced him to find another job...

oh, about 15 years ago...

he went to work here at the elevator...

and now he works for the same company, just in another town...

8 miles north on country roads...

and he works out in the open 90% of the time all year long...

it gets very hot here...

and it gets very cold here...

but he's out there rain, sleet, hail...

doesn't matter...

in the fall...

he's there most of the time...

he pulls 12 hour shifts and works 13 days straight when the crops start coming in from the fields...

its better than it used to be when he first started...

they used to work them 14-18 hour shifts with no days off until it was done...

it can be very dangerous work and it is hard work...

the machinery and the dangers of explosions are very real...

they must keep track of bin moisture and temps all the time...

if they fall in a bin, they die...

DH turned 60 this year and keeps up with 20-30 year olds...

most people won't do this type of work...

they want inside jobs, days off...

but, it pays the bills and we have insurance...

and I hate every minute that he has to do this...

but the harvest money gets us through the year...

we put it back...

to cover things like taxes, vehicle repairs...

doctor bills...

and I worry about him...

and his new boss is a jerk...

making it really hard on the guys this harvest...

they are the ones who I asked for prayer for...

this handful of guys are close...

closer than most families are...

and they have each other's backs...

in a few more weeks, harvest will wind down again...

we will get back to the normal times and supper won't be at 8pm anymore...

he won't be so tired...

we will have our walks...

and eat $2 hamburgers when we go out...

;0)

doctor's appointment tomorrow to get something else to take to keep my blood sugar down...

Craig is taking me over there...

making chili this weekend...

its supposed to be cooler!

so, have a wonderful night...

;)

I need to work on the kitchen here...

and have my supper prep work done...

so I am ready when he gets home...

;0)