Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Good morning...

got  ferns coming up in a front bed...
I don't have these kind of ferns...
mine come up a lot later and uncurl...
wonder how these got here...

am having a much better morning...
I am so happy that little flu bug was only a 24 hour thing...

talked to my step mom last night...
they got dad moved back to the nursing home on Monday...
the doctor said he is 90% sure the mass on his pancreas is cancer...
dad hasn't been told any of this...
he started telling everyone over the weekend that he is dying...
that he won't live long enough to see warmer spring days and going outside again...
he told my step mom that he wishes she could go with him...
and he was sorry he was going to have to leave her alone...
he knows...
and he's ready...
and my step mom says this last year that he has been here...
has been for her to make the transition...
of living without him...
pray for an easy passing...
and that they have the strength to do what needs to be done between now and then...
and the peace...
I believe him...
and I am ok with it...
he has lived with pain for over 30 years now...
I am anxious for him to leave this body...
that all his trials will soon be over...
I wish I could be there when he crosses over...
I would love to see him leave this world...
because you can see the other side right before you leave...
and there is such a peace if you are ready to go...
you can almost see it in their eyes and in that moment...
heaven and earth touch...
and I have this feeling...
he may just go out preaching...

6 comments:

Donnie said...

I know this is a difficult time for you and yours and you all are in my thoughts.

~~Carol~~ said...

Very touching post, and I'll keep you and your family in my prayers, Tete.

Leslie said...

Hi Tete... are you sure they are ferns? I am thinking maybe not. Can you email a really close up picture? I am sorry you're facing all of this with your dad.. a smooth passage is what we can all hope for isn't it... My prayers are with you during this time of transition.
Leslie

Angela said...

What a blessing that his passing will be a sweet home going. That's the way it should be...praying for all of you.
Angela

NanaDiana said...

Love the green signs of Spring, Tete.

I know that your heart is ready to release your Dad...and I am glad your stepmom has had some time to process being alone. But, as you know, even when one has been ill a long time there is a sort of "start" when they actually pass....even though you know it is coming.

You are right about passages. I have seen some tough ones with people with no faith...going out fighting for the last breath because they had nothing to look forward to in the next life. Sad. Glad your Dad is ready to go...xxoo Diana

Ann@A Sentimental Life said...

sending you my love.....